So I've managed to back myself into a proverbial corner, and now my emotions are going haywire on me. I may have done it to myself but the torrent refuses to allow me to do what needs to be done to correct it. I have noticed this has been happening a lot lately, for the past couple of years. Determination and ambition now seem to be crumbling into a mass of lethargy and self pity. My will to fight has turned from a roar of courage to a pleading whimper. I can't say that I enjoy living like this, but I have no idea just what I should do. This is mainly because I'm not quite sure what the problem is exactly, or rather where the roots of it lay.
Well part of the reason for typing all of this in a new blog is because I'm planning on making this my public "Book of Shadows". I am going to try taking a bath with the Ylang Rose bath foam from Bath and Body Works Since most of my thoughts are of a depressed nature, and I don't have anything better to use to signify self love at the moment. After that I will work on a list of things about myself that are worth loving, and try to meditate on them.
~Pandora
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